Blooming in the Desert

For too many years I've had the same New Years Resolution.  This year I realized my goal... for a while.  It was exhilarating to put more focus on other things for a change.  Then I gave myself a couple excuses, obvious ones at that, and went right back in to my old ways, feeling very defeated... for a while.  (The feeling of defeat is such a funny thing.  It only allows for the perpetuation of more defeat.)  But I happened by a little tidbit of advice recently, a beautiful truth that I already knew—everybody knows:  Each time you fail at something that you've given great effort to, you fail a little differently, so lea rn something new about it and move on.

Here's what I learned from my latest failure:  You can't drag everyone with you into your success, because success looks differently to us all.  If you are waiting for the world to follow you to make achieving your goal easier, you are no innovator, and may be better suited to following the rest of the crowd.  (It's just not my style, baby.)   Having a strong support system is nice and all, but I didn't realize in my call for support from others, that I was actually waiting for my world and the people in it to be more cozy—to incubate my growth.  "You see, now everyone here is doing this just like me, all the circumstances are perfect, and now I feel safer doing this!"  How many of us unconsciously tell ourselves this to win in life, and how long have I been doing it?  Because it's never going to happen!

People are all struggling with what they've resolved to do in this world, and we didn't all come in to it for the same reason.  It is unrealistic to want the ones that love you to stand with you.  Even if what is best for you, is best for them.  After all, one of the drawbacks of being human is, we can often only be determined on one thing at a time.

I'm opting out of a New Years Resolution this year.  It's better if I'm resolute every today I'm in, whether I left yesterday defeated or not.  There is no option anymore to start tomorrow.  If I am to truly succeed and leave the day undefeated, then I will cut failure off at the pass, and begin again each today, each right now, that I deviate from my intentions, and above all, learn to bloom in the desert.

Bless you all in your unique vision of success in the coming year.